A short story

I ruined my life in 1 night. I was in a relationship for over 5 years. I always tried to convince me that i really love her but deep down i didnt.I remember the first night where she slept in my arms, she was so happy… I never found the courage to end the relarionship, because i always look at it through her eyes and how she would feel if i break up. Cheating was and will always be the end of a relationship . So i hoped for a long time she cheats on me. Well guess what happenend, i went out to have a few drinks with coworkers. A few drinks too many. I ended up cheating on my then girlfriend, with a married woman. The woman was known to have an open marriage. It doesnt matter tho. Shortly after i broke up with my ex. (I never regretted the break up, i hope she findstrue love as soons as possible) I completely betrayed my ex and myself just to get out of the relationship. Marriage was always holy to me, and cheating disgusting. And this will stay the same. 9 months later and i still feel like dying everyday. 29 years of beeing a wonderful human being thrown out of the window in 1 night.