My wife of 5 years cheated on me

My wife of 5 years cheated on me with two of her co worker while we work at the same job. I knew something was not right at home but she denied the affair hence I tapped her phone conversation witht them and reported with evidence to the job that got one of them been a supervisor fired for inappropriate behavior. My world came crumbling, wife finally acceot the affair, apologized and threatened to commit suicide if the marriage end, i forgave her ( the greatest mistake i ever made ) , she pretended to end the affair which i knew she didnt. Act nice and remorse but end up been the worst i ever seen after we had our second child. We had two more children over the next 7 years but the damage was beyond repair as this was the worst years of my life. I lost my identity, drive, confidence and self worth. She emasculated me, gaslight and subject me to untold humiliation with friends and families while i kept and carried the burden of her affairs for years. After 7 years, i decided to finally confesss to my family and friends about the situatiion which led to our seperation few weeks ago and will be filling for divorce to end this misery once and for all. Wish i had not kept her secret, open up , seek for help, and divorced her when it happened but i subjected myself to 7 years of miserable , depressed and suicidal life. I am trying to rebuild my life all over again but the pain seem very fresh and even more hurting now than it was 7 yesrs ago.